no wonder mum said this year was an emotional rollarcoaster for me. last year, when i was preparing for the PGA, it was hard and i cried. then when the whole mess of the PGA thing was shot, i cried. and then i cried again when i got a second chance. and then i cried when my prelims was 15. and then i cried when i had 12. so just to let you ppl know i'm not prone to crying that much. it's just a thing i do when i'm stressed. normally i beat people up but in these occassions, i think i was overwhelmed. yeah, that's a nice word to use. i'm not a cry baby, nor do i like people to see me cry.

let me tell you the suckest thing. see, i think the school was trying to calculate what our marks were for the two pga people. they totally forgot about our chinese marks. so of course when they calculated for me, i had 14 pts. and yesh, my mum told me (physics teacher duh so of course she knew from someone) and then i cried for like 3 hours. really felt like jumping. no joke. then when we were going to get the results, she called again and said that the teachers made a mistake. bloody hell. mistake like that not funny u know. 10 points and 14 points very different. i was so pissed. if i had jumped, that teacher would be guilt ridden for life. haha. (ok, so maybe that wouldn't be very funny since we're talking about a life here)

of course i cried again. let me tell you, my mum was so relieved. even my sister thought i did badly. cos they annouced that quek had 11( pga person as well wad) which they also calculated wrongly. she had 10, just like me. and my a1s were for eng and lit. can u believe that? physics. hmph. not going to talk about that. yy had 9 pts and sonya 6. my friends are all smarter than me. even dorothy had 9. woah. but life is okay. i guess. i think yy might be going to NJ. project work will be starting soon. actually i thought 10 pts was really bad compared to my friends but now i don't think so. only 55 % of people from my batch in sn had 10 or less. even june was saying it was good. as well as yanni. i think i scared sangeeta. she was worried i'll jump. and i was worried i really would.

ming looks really good. really pretty, she'll kill me for saying that. i miss her.